Dear Myself, You're sexy. Yourself.

The trouble with having a blog is that you have to have something to write about all the time, and when all your life consists of is University, Work and dealing with other rubbish what you have to put into words is worth about as much as a pair of woollen socks is to an ant.

That was a colossally shit analogy...I know.

What I am trying to say is that even if you feel like writing something down, sometimes it's difficult.

I have a book at home called "Blogging for fame and fortune" (or a title to that effect. you know, the kind of title that a chump like me would read and see $$$$$$$$$ and fork over the $30 bucks for the book.... Let's call the book "Mike Murdoch", and I'm somebody in need - all I need to do is prayfully give a donation of $30 and expect a harvest.... You really need to watch this video to get what I am talking about --> here) I digress, and in this book - the first thing it says is to always have something to talk about...

Personally, I believe a blog is almost a means to bookmark your life.

I'm not saying that blogs should be "so today I did this, and then I went to do this, and WHILE I was doing that I saw this and then did that thing in that time at that place where we went that day to see you-know-who because she is a total bitch, remember what happened at that party with whatshisface".

No, I believe blogs can be more than that.

I think though only you, the writer, can take more from your writing than anybody else reading your posts - mainly because you can identify themes in your writing that others can't/won't understand.

For example, I posted in February about going away and being in Love - this was just after I had started to date my girlfriend, whom I loved very much and I was extraordinarily happy and I was expressing my upset at having to go away and leave her but also I talked about how it made me realise that I needed to make the most of the time that I had with her - essentially that was what that post was about, the rest - well that was just filling.

In case you haven't guessed already, I am no longer with this person - which is where my previous post comes from - through all the disappointment comes a sense of clarity (to a degree). Now, I am far more sensitive to relationships and peoples feelings and the connections you make with others because of the things that I learnt and felt when I was in a relationship.

I mean also there are reoccurring themes such as my distain for University and stupid people, but each blog comes from a different place - and while you (the reader) may not know where, I do and always will.

If that made sense.....?

I had absolutely nothing to write about when I started this, and yet here we are... I wrote about something.

Thank-you to Anni for the inspiration (:

Tom

What do you fight for?

Now here's something that I haven't done in a while.

Every now and then it helps to take some time to write down your thoughts, mainly because it's like having a conversation with someone who won't look at you funny, or judge you, or laugh when they aren't supposed to, or ask stupid questions or even tell you that you are right or wrong.

It's one sided and that's sometimes all you want - to be heard.

I had a change in my life philosophy early on this year.

I previously lived for myself, I was single and I didn't really think anything of it - you did things when you want to, you buy things for yourself - essentially its a fairly selfish existence, but it is never viewed that way - because there are so many people living that way.

But it's only when you meet someone that is truly fantastic, that takes your breath away, that is always in the back or front of your mind, that you want to share your entire life with - do you realise just how selfish you have been.

Sure there is most definitely a learning curve, going from doing your own thing to doing things with both of you in mind is quite of a shock but is it worth it? absolutely.

So here is what I have to say to anyone living for themselves.

Take a chance, say screw it and give yourself whole heartedly to your emotions or someone else, sure - it might not work out or pay off and you could end up getting hurt but life is a series of events that shape and mould us and has undoubtedly, turned you into the person that you are today.

Without experiencing pain or love how are we to know what's worth fighting for?

Have a bad relationship? you recognise the signs of such and you learn to compartmentalise and distance yourself to save yourself from future pain, but never let that affect your present or future, don't throw something away just because there is a possibility that something might go wrong, or the going gets tough - that possibility is there all the time, it doesn't bother you when things are peachy?

But every now and then - you'll meet someone who you know is going to treat you right and when they say they aren't going to hurt you and that they love you, believe it or not, they mean it - those are the people worth fighting for, even if it is difficult.

There are just some things in this life worth fighting for, love and happiness are some of them, once you have found both of those things, every thing else that might be happening in your life comes second, if you find someone who truly makes you happy, hang on to them tightly and never let them go - fight when times get hard and cherish the good times.

It is worth remembering here that if you are in a relationship that perhaps has become slightly mundane, don't take anything for granted, it will be the commonplace activities that you miss the most.

Always make sure your partner knows exactly how you feel about them, rub their back, kiss them on the forehead, it might seem insignificant but it makes a world of difference, and above all else....

Communicate with each other.

Don't waste the experience that is love and a relationship.

FIRE SALE BABY! LETS SELL THIS SH*T

I juts had a genius moment... *post submission note: my "genius" moment is undermined by my obvious inability to spell correctly.

SELL EVERYTHING! :D

I have so much crap well loved goods lying around stored carefully around my room gathering dust when I am pretty sure I could make some money off of them.

You might argue that hanging onto this stuff is better than loosing money on whatever it is that I decide to sell.. with all due respect, STFU.

50% of something is better than 100% of nothing, and right now all of my "well loved goods" are making me about as much money as dwarfs make in high jump competitions.

If I were a pimp, and my goods were my hoes, I'd pimp slap them bitches and get them back on the street to make me some dollaz, so get out there onto those "street corners" (i.e. eBay) and MAKE WAYNE BRADY SOME MONEY?

Taking Stock

I mentioned "getting to" America in my previous blog.

*short version: I applied to work in Orlando at Disney World for a year (through University), was accepted, leaving July '11 - July '12.

Anyway, what I want to discuss is the notion of "taking stock of your life" - dedicating some time to really thinking about what is important and what you value the most.

This trip undoubtedly will be a once in a lifetime opportunity where I will have the chance to broaden my horizons, meet new people, gain a significantly better work ethic and grow and mature as a person...

(okay, so I was reading the brochure)

However I am torn.

I'm going to try to get away with not sounding too cliche - okay this is going to sound cliche - I've fallen in love.

Now I wasn't looking for a partner, but this was just one of those things, where your not planning on it but someone comes along who you know is right for you and you them....

I read a saying the other day;

"Life is what happens when you're making other plans"

I've been thinking about this for a while now (you're yet to hear what I have been thinking...don't worry though, it's coming), in fact, since the Brisbane floods.

What I have been thinking about, is the type of situation that people need to be in to stop (most of the time, this happens best when the situation is out of their control - you're less likely to evaluate your life in a similar fashion when you have the choice not too), take some time and think about what's important to them...this can either be tangible items or (and this is more likely) intangible.

Similar to what it takes for rules to be changed or instigated, it often takes great tragedy to shock people into action.

Take the floods - an absolute tragedy, an event not thought possible after '74 - so many people's lives were turned upside down, possessions were lost (some irreplaceable) and lives were unnecessarily lost.

(wow I really loose interest in writing these things - mainly because it would go from being semi-decent writing to drivel...well its already drivel I know but ehh)

You get where I am going with this, if not...let me try and summarise it...

Everyone lives in a little bubble, content with our situation (and I am guilty of this too) and it's only when an event occurs that is out of our control that we are forced to go - well this isn't important but this is.

AND IN A FULL CIRCLE... that's what I am feeling now.

I have a deadline, I am going to America in less that 6 months, so I have less 6 months to make the very most of the time that I have with the people that I love, in particular one person.

In a way, its good because I won't take advantage of the time that I spend with my friends, family and her, and then the obvious - it sucks because I have to leave.

Ehh I dunno it's hard to put into words.

I know that I run the risk of being a hypocrite, but I think that perhaps every now and then we should all take some time, even 10 minutes, and force ourselves to think about what really is important to us and (Imma quote Zombieland) even appreciate the little things.

Whether that be a friend, a great cup of coffee, your girlfriend, your job, your bed even the weather.

People are always doing it worse, but in the face of adversity or tough situations people are capable of amazing things.

*I don't really know how that is relevant, I just wanted to throw it in*

Carpe Diem baby....

HURRY UP UNIVERSITY

So here I am.

And I never thought that I would see the day where I could honestly say that I want to go back to Uni, not because I want to get it over with and graduate in 6 months (actually it's even less than that now, its more like 4.5/5 months) or so that I can get to America faster it is simply because I want to get back to using my brain and to get back some kind of routine into my life.

Ahhh the University lifestyle.

Those of you starting university this year are yet to full appreciate the lifestyle, to you, in your first couple of years, Uni is nothing more than school with a bad haemorrhoid, only difference is there are no teachers doctors here to treat you/spoon feed you.

You and your over-the-counter haemorrhoid cream are on your own.

I must admit, University is very much a "get out what you put in" type of place and in retrospect I probably could have put a little more "in" to my University experience.

There were no crazy parties for me, no body shots, no alcohol fuelled evenings in the Uni pub, no waking up naked on the trampoline at some guys place that I hadn't met before I went to my first Strategy and Change tutorial...*cough*...nope, I took the 'I go to Uni for classes and leave'.

And I hate group work.

I kind of wish that I had of spent some more time dedicated to getting to know more people and create "future networks", but sometimes, whats the point? Just so somewhere down the track I can be like "Hey! ...no?.... 3117HSL?! I sat up the back and slept every lecture?! you don't remember me!?.... well you were a douchebag anyway - you and your stupid hair, thongs, singlet and boardies...."? (University stereotypes for the win!)

I'm good....I'll just add them on facebook.